Building a Church, fiction by Lara Konesky

He was quite cer­tain that life most­ly was noth­ing but cre­ation and evo­lu­tion.  Boys were sup­posed to become men and all that shit, and the men build fam­i­lies and hous­es and empires.  He thought a lot about the word man, and the word man was dif­fer­ent than the idea of a man, and the idea of a man was noth­ing but a social con­struct forced upon him.

Most men fight demons and they spend so much time fight­ing demons that they just stay.  Stunt­ed.

He was deep in thought and did not want to have sex with his girl­friend.  Sex with him, he knew, was an event that took too much ener­gy. He want­ed to save his ener­gy for pon­der­ing.  He knew she real­ly want­ed to, though, because her eyes and her hands became needy crea­tures with fangs and a bone to pick with him for not giv­ing her every­thing she want­ed.

He let her give him head, and she seemed fine with that.  He didn’t ask if she need­ed any­thing in return, but she didn’t seem to be unsat­is­fied so he just let it go.

He actu­al­ly thought maybe a nap would be bet­ter than think­ing.  His girl­friend asked him for his cred­it card, and he gave it to her so she wouldn’t both­er him for awhile.  Most­ly, he liked to be alone.

Most men stop fight­ing only to rest their minds.

Have you ever watched a per­son die?” He asked his girl­friend, who was done shop­ping, and was lin­ger­ing around his per­son­al space until he noticed her.

Is this some role play­ing game?” She asked, sud­den­ly excit­ed.  Her eye­balls leaped across the room and did a joy­ful dance.  He stared blankly at her sil­ly eyes.

You are stu­pid. I am not sure why I love you.” he said, and she took it as a com­pli­ment.

Most peo­ple have bod­ies of water, but you have a body of Vod­ka,” she said, and he took it as a com­pli­ment.

"Your reli­gion is one of apa­thy. You wor­ship not giv­ing a shit about shit." She told him, on the last day they spent togeth­er.

Lat­er on, she told her friends he was prob­a­bly gay. This was the only expla­na­tion for how lit­tle they had sex, and why he hard­ly looked up from the movie he was watch­ing when she final­ly left for good.

koneskyLara Konesky is a 33 year old part time ESL teacher, lazy bum ass, and writer from Colum­bus, Ohio.  Her first book, Next to Guns, can be found at www​.griev​ousjone​spress​.com (Griev­ous Jones Press, 2009). She co-edit­ed (with Andrew Tay­lor, Erbac­ce Press) and con­tributed to Blood at the Chelsea (Erbac­ce Press 2010), an anthol­o­gy of writ­ers writ­ing for oth­er writ­ers. You can also read Lara's work online and in print at New Aes­thet­ic, Gut­ter Elo­quence, Curb­side Splen­dor, Word Riot, Left Hand Wav­ing, and var­i­ous oth­er rad places.…

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1 Response to Building a Church, fiction by Lara Konesky

  1. Rammy Darwish says:

    Not bad lara ram­my 614 360 5198

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